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| so its been a while xunga just wanted 2 write some shit down lol i dont know what exactly i just finished reading ashleys post and well i guess ive got a lot of feelings going through my head ( i think WAY to much) i guess im just thinking about the ups and the downs and possibilities of my future - i mean how great could it be? i think if its equal and meaningful then it can be the epitomy of love and happiness- at the same time i hate wondering lol i wish i would lose about 50 pounds lol i mean i feel like a sexy guy and i know that always helps because if u feel it it shows but at the same time i get self concious and think about what other people must really think.- I love Ashley- shes wonderful we laugh so much 2gether and have great times - I think about the kind of Bf i am and I know ashley see's me for what i am - I am very caring and i love 2 make people happy and smile - I think me and ash are a special couple and we've got mad love 2 give ha - Like i said HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THAT ASS? - So we have 2 see penguins talkin shit!- lol sorry i digress (or however u spell it) anywayz so i wonder where she has been and what shes been up 2? she really is quite beautiful - I always allowed my feelings to sit on the backburner and wait for the right time and i guess after meeting her i have somehow broken my rule and now have a full blown crush. hey at least she laughs at my jokes. thats a good thing right? I also like 2 think i have a nice smile lol even with my fucked up teeth lol - i guess since ive been dating ashley for a while now the whole dating scene (which ive never really been a part of i guess lol) hits me again and i get feelings of happiness and excitement as well as doubt and probably all around fear of rejection lol - she has a beautiful smile... Oh to see them kiss... but would i have to leave the room? i guess the couch is comfy.. lol but ya i guess it would take a while for me 2 write everything i have been thinking and feeling but i guess i can just sit back and see what happens... They are both special. Time 2 get some crank... Keep your heart pumping ;) -Mark | | |
| IM super excited its christmas eve - for everyone out there i hope even if ur down or sad that somehow someway u can bring out that happiness :) - im super excited and im not even gettin all those sweet presents that kids are getting these days :P lol remember the days when there was like 500 wrapped gifts under the tree ?? even though they werent all for you it still was nice 2 see em and wish they were all for you :P haha anywayz mandy wants us 2 move out 2 pennsylvania right? thatd be tight i like it out there i miss goin 2 the amish area - ill definately have 2 go 2 this place Good N Plenty - its the shitttttt!! so much delicious food and i kinda like sittin at a huge table with all these people i dont know - i think there needs 2 be more places like that were complete strangers have to sit and enjoy dinner 2gether and are forced 2 mingle lol - i understand people need to have their private space but shit thats what the home is for lol this world needs 2 be more open to new friends and new experiences :P anywayz i saw this picture and i thought id give all the ladies out there a lil preview of what i got for them hahaha :) Also Ash and even Mandy this is what u can get me for xmas hahaha ;) 
Merry Xmas ;) | | |
| Heyyy what the fuck has been up xunga??? its been a while .. so im finally gonna use this thing 2 write good stuff in lol for now - we'll see haha. But ya its been a long crazy year with lots of good times especially with my boo(ger) in champaign and in miami and all the airports in between ;) - i met a lot of good friends and fun people - and learned a lot of things about myself and my life. now the year is almost gone and i have a lot of great things to look forward to in the new year ! lots of good times 2 come im sure - Lookin forward 2 meeting ManDee and maybe even go to europe in the summertime who knows lol . so something big 2 mention these last few days me and ashley have been taking rides on the "Audobahn" now only a priveliged few will ever know what that is but i wish u all had one in your house ;) - so since ashley is embarassed about telling anyone about this (which i think is a shame -Think of the poor women! all the hope u can bring them haha) I've managed to give ashley an intense (hopefully) Orgasm during sex :) - hell ya finally haha- It took a while but we finally found it while riding the Audobahn! so Congratulations 2 ashley lol I love ya sexy - So thats all i got for right now ! i hope you all have a wonderful holiday :) -Mark 
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| No matter how hard I try..everything falls right back into that hole.i try and i try and i try and i always think im out but its so decieving and things just come crashing down again. i hate it all. im going 2 the beach 2 get my mind str8 and hang out with my girls. they always cheer me up.i fuckin clean everyday but its never clean enough. fuckin worked over 10 jobs in my life since i was 14 but thats obviously not enough work- i actually used 2 want 2 work real bad make money and be rich and be happy and give my friends and family money now i dont give a shit i dont want anything i just want 2 be happy.i love u ashley but where has ur mind been these last few days. i love you and i need you.. its all crashing now... gotta find that light again. | | |
| well 2day didnt start off very well. i wanna be home for my baby when she gets home but i dont wanna be home PERIOD lol. i hope shes having a good day and not worrying about me cuz ill be fine.i want her 2 run and jump and sing and dance everywhere and smile.. i just want her 2 smile.the only thing im worried about now is how im gunna get a tux so i can look gorgeous next 2 my beautiful prom queen. i love you baby and i hope 2day is goin well. khaly's gunna come pick me up cuz his dad needs help moving some tile for their backyard. call his phone when u get home and read this. again i love you baby and thanks for being there for me | | |
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